It has been so long since i last blog. I nearly forget abt the existence of my blog. haha

I shall update my blog abit after such a long long time. Life has been quite boring for me since I started holidays cuz I didn't really manage to find a job. SIanz. The market is really not very good. I kind of regret for not joining more sch activities since I gt ample of time. lols. Everyday, when I wake up, I read the classified newspaper to see whether is there any jobs. After that, I will go online to look for jobs. At the same time, I will also facebook-ing. Then, I will watch tv and nua until the time when my parents come back from work or go out for awhile. This cycle will just repeat everyday. HAHA. I'm just slacking around at home.
But recently, my cycle changed slightly cuz I went to work at IT fair and went for the rollerskating orientation. At first for the IT fair, it is pretty tiring for standing the whole day and quite discouraging when I didn't manage to sell anything after talking to the person for quite a long time. Subsequently, I got used to it and I gt more product knowledge of what I'm selling, things have been much easier. I got to talk with my fellow promoters while there was no customers and time seemed to pass faster and was more fun afterall. I got to know more friends. It is indeed a nice experience. Can consider to work for next IT fair. HAHA
Then, straight after the IT fair, peiyu and I went for the rollerskates orientation. We took super duper long time to find ecp. ECP is really a ulu place. It is really tiring to look after the kids especially the younger kids and I perspire alot under the hot sun. They are hyper-active and is really hard to convince them to go skating once they fell down too many times. Undeniable, they are cute but they are super imaginative. In the late afternoon, peiyu and I, together with the other trainees will learn how to skate. It is really quite hard to skate but is fun la. And I realise skating is not just skating. There are alot of knowledges and skills to it. Up to now, I still dun noe how to brake and skate properly using the centre ageing and not inward ageing. lols

I need to find a job! Then I can earn lots of money to finance my spending. I just realise that I nv go shopping for very long. I wan to buy my agnes B coin purse and m)phosis's sandals. Eat swensen's baked rice and do lots lots of activities. HAHA
After so long, I still misses you. Misses all the memories that we had. I know that things have changed and it is never possible to get back to the same point where we started. But, still......
Love daphne :)

I shall update abit after so long.

Last Sat, YECs and I helped out in YuNa's wedding dinner. It is quite fun decorating the cc hall through out the night though it is abit tiring. Then, on the actual day we went early to finish the work that is not done. Blowing up the helium balloons and spraying the snow on the glass doors. While spraying, I spotted my eye-candy for the day. hahas. not bad. Soon, the dinner started and the bride and groom came. Seeing them so sweet and blissful, made me feel that all the efforts we did was worthwhile. It made me feel like getting in love but where is my bai ma wang zi? hahas. Anyway, taking photos become our agenda of the day with our photographer, Gel. I cam-whore alot with jianying, peiyu n hwee boon after the whole event. While cam-whoring, we spotted a guy who looked like he wei jian though i still that he looked more like hong jun yang. He is the caterer for the buffet and was clearing the things for the buffet. We became so excited abt seeing someone that looked like he wei jian and we started cam-whoring with him and disturbing him. hahas. Too bad, that we never recruit him to YECs. Lols.

Yesterday, Ruoyi, Esther and I went to Cheryl's pgp to stayover. It was quite fun and a nice gathering for us. We ate our dinner cum supper at around 11pm. We ordered cheese fries, nuggets, fried rice and waffle and decided to da bao to eat at umbrella place that cheryl suggested. But the umbrella place don't have chairs and in the end we ended up eating at the benches. The waffle is super nice and the chocolate is dripping. Esther ate till her whole mouth gt the chocolate stain =x. The fried rice is very tasty and it taste somehow like the supper in sheares hall except that it don't have the egg that wrap with the rice. After eating, we gossip abt their dating stories. hahas. Can see their xing fu de yang zi when they talked abt their bf.

That's all for the updates! tired

My life is so screwed up. I have not been up to the capability that I thot i will have. Everything I done is not up to my expectation. Things don't turn up as fun/well as I thot it will be. My commitment and responsibility seemed to be deterred by relationship and strained as it passed by. It makes me lose the momentum to do things. I seemed hard to excel in anything that I do. tired and just tired. I have not been feeling really happy and enjoying it ever since it started. It started all with impulse and a wrong decision made. After that, it just became a chain of consequences which I trying to accept it. I'm just losing and losing as it passes by. Sometimes, I ever wondered why do we have to do thing for the sake of impressing something or someone. it seemed....
Just feel that I wouldn't do well for anything I do.

FINALLY OVER

eXAm is finally over.
eVerythIng shall be oVEr. oVer. oVEr
i will tRy to stOp thInking abt tHE past n mOVe on.
hope i can.
certain things are just not meant to be mine.
nO matter how hard u try to get back.
everything in the past shall be over from now on.

I'm so disappointed in myself. Why can't I seem to do all the papers.
Having studied so much, it seem no use at all.
maybe i should juz forget abt studying
or i'm not juz cut to be in business
at fIrst, i thot stats paper should be quite easy n math has always been my strength
but after this paper, I was so disappointed.
actually the paper is not difficult. It is just that it is very conceptually which i cannot grasp.
anD I made so many mistakes.
my other paper also mei you hao dao na li qu.
all cannot finish n i lose so many marks for leaving it blank
haiZ....haIZ
lose my motivation to study
I can say bye bye to my GPA.
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I'm immensing myself with all the PROJECTS.
Where can i get done with it?
Every weekend I'm chiong-ing my projects n tutorials.
Some of my ntu friends already start studying and I'm still doing projects.
SIANZ
despite my hectic schdule, I'm still and always missing my ****. hahas.
Just a random thought. hahas

take car3
da........

遇见一个人需要一秒,
认识一个人需要一分钟,
喜欢一个人需要一个小时,
爱上一个人需要一天,
可是如果没有缘分，
却需要用一辈子去忘记这个人.

I simply love these statements. How true it is.